“My Uncle has light brownish green eyes. They sparkle when hit by the sun and even when they don’t hit the sun, they sparkle. They sparkle kind of like glass or maybe even like a fresh coat of clear nail polish.”
This vignette was about the eye color in my family. I really got into detail about the way my Uncle’s eye looked and how it shined. I feel like I was very thorough description wise and I am proud of it. Even though I have done a lot of good work, I have also had moments where I did too much or where I was really rude towards a specific person. I have an example of each but I will start with just the moments where I was rude to an individual. There is one post where I was responding to Aleah and this is what I said,
“First of all, my name is ROKHSOR not Rhocksor so you need to get that straight and through your head. If you can't spell my name, then don't respond to me because it pisses me off. That is the most annoying thing in the world so don't respond to me, look at my blog or anything if you don't know how to spell my name. Oh yeah, no I'm not sorry so yeah, I'm not apologizing to you because YOU pissed me off and YOU need writing lessons.”
Aleah had responded to one of my posts where I was talking about my friends love life and she spelled my name wrong. When people spell my name wrong, something in my mind goes off and I immediately feel like I need to attack them. I was disgusted, I mean if your on my blog, then obviously your eyes will see my name somewhere there. That is why I didn’t understand why the hell my name was not spelled correctly. But aside from that, I feel like I was rude and maybe I should not have said what I said. But I did and I can’t change it so too bad and now I will move on so something a lot more interesting. I have a lot of examples of me doing too much but I have one in particular that probably got the most bad responses,
“That is the point in time where I decide that I will not forgive anyone at all for any reason because no one deserves to be forgiven. It is not like I have never done anything wrong and I do not expect anything from anyone so people not forgiving me makes no difference to me. Yeah of course, if it were a good friend I would be upset at the fact that they wouldn't have forgiven me but hell no I would not have made an effort to make it better. People not forgiving me is nothing at all, it just shows that people are smart and know better that to forgive me for what I did wrong.”
This post here was abut forgiving people who have done you wrong and I have a lot to say about that. I hate forgiving those who do me wrong and I hate when people forgive me when I do wrong. That is because things change and it is never the same. However, I did a horrible job of explaining myself because I came out sounding like I was rude and like I lived in the past. Although I have had my bad times, I have also had my positive moments. The times where I got through to everybody and they agreed with me. One of those examples was when I talked about thieves and people in my business.
“The stupidest part of stealing is when people put a reward on what was rightfully yours. If someone stole what was yours and what you already paid for, then why would you pay for it again just because some careless goat decided to be cheap? No, it does not work that way. You will not under any circumstance pay for something twice.”
This was one of my most strongest posts because I put in various things that everyone agreed with. Starting with people making you pay for what was yours in the first place. Many people agreed with my point of view on this specific post and I was glad to get all of the positive feedback. The reason I had written this post was because some immature sophomores had stolen my stuff and it pissed me off. I don’t take back what I just said and I probably won’t. The worst thing to ever do is steal and when someone stole from me I was disgusted and the reason for that was that I expected more from all of the students. On top of stealing my stuff like a bunch of little kids, they went through my personal things and looked through what I had. By the time I had actually found out that my stuff was missing, half of one of th sophomore classes had looked at my stuff. It was the one time in my life where violence had crossed my mind a few times. If anything, I am the only girl in the freshman class that hates violence but at that point in the situation, I didn’t care. Although I have had all of my bad moments, these blog posts have help me go from someone who overreacts too fast and is way to rude, to someone mature. I wrote a post about respect and it is most definitely proof of me being rude and overreacting at the situation,
I usually start off respecting everything and everyone in the world until they prove to me that they are trash and do not deserve to be respected... I hate when I have to lose respect for someone because then it means I have to consider them trash that I would spit on. They bring it on themselves”.In this post here, I got mad at some situation, I don’t remember what it was but it obviously set me off. The result of that was a post like this one. However, as time went on and I blogged more, my behavior took a turn for the better of things. I wrote another post further explaining myself,
“The things people did around me was disgusting. There were people putting others down, calling them names, and trying to make their lives “a living hell”. It was stupid and I was tired of seeing people disrespect others. I mean, if you know me, then you better know that respect is my name. I do not care who you are and what is going on with you, you had better respect everyone when you are around me.”This was the time when I got a response from someone calling me a “drama queen” which made me want to write another post talking about how I didn’t care about that person and their input on things meant absolutely nothing. Also that the person needed to stop responding to me because no one cares about what she has to say. However, after all the blogging I have done, I learned to get over it and to address it in a respectful manner. That is why I think overall, blogging has helped my behavior, as well as my perception on things.
I think it is safe to summarize your main writing lesson this year as follows: You have begun to learn the power of AUDIENCE. What I mean is, when you put writing out there your audience has some power in the way they respond or interpret your words. And sometimes their reading/interpretations/responses can have stronger consequences than you might expect, as you discovered.
ReplyDeleteThe flip-side of this of course, is that you also have power over your audience, in the way you choose your words carefully to affect their reading/interpretation in the way you want...Figuring out the best way to get people to think what YOU want them to think (and not to think what you DON'T want them to) is a huge part of becoming a better writer, and it is clear you have taken some giant leaps along this path this year. And your reflections on these experiences are very mature and clear-sighted, I'd say.
Thanks for a great year!